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Quietmind 2 · 08:51 AM

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Originally Posted by LonesomeTonight

Hugs, QM. I hope your therapy session ended up going well.

It went okay. She was very confused at first because I was very incoherent, but I had my notebook where I had written stuff. I don't remember when did I write a good part of it.

Then I picked a fight with her, because I didn't see a future for myself.

Possible trigger:

My sense of time is completely screwed and I was really suicidal... I am really disturbed whenever I'm made aware that another Self was out, even though it was a good thing because they told my T.

I initially refused to consider the sui hotline because I've had bad experiences.

I did promise to follow my safety plan, which includes taking a taxi to the psych ER even though inpatient would be traumatic.

I knew people who ended their life rather than go back there.

I'm done with social workers. They all say I did everything they can think of, so good luck.

If it was just me, okay fine. I'm just worthless since I can't work after destroying my health working in the same system which failed me. According to my nation's eugenics, I'm worthless if I can't contribute to the economy.

But they do this to minors who flee abuse because they're too old for CPS and not yet legal adults. Kids "forgive" CSA so they can have a roof over their head.

I promised my T I'll email her tomorrow afternoon. I don't deserve her care though. I'm just utterly worthless because I can't work.