So I made the appointment. It is Friday at 9:00 am.

It wasn't my first choice but glad that I can get it done this week.

I was still hesitating. As a final thing I tried my cat on digestive enzymes.

But today, my cat threw up... a lot. And then, he started going number two outside the box.

It was a pitiful sight.

After all that was over ... and thank god I was home today, I was like this is it. This is the sign. No it isn't getting better... and I have tried at least 50 things.

Right now, I feel a little happy, happy that the decision has been made. They will come to my home and said that the vet will discuss everything with me and then proceed if I would like them too.

I am the type that doesn't like to see it. So I will leave the house and let her proceed.

I hope I can stay distracted until it is done.

Last time I had to put a cat down I took him to the vet in the morning and dropped him off and then left for work, so I was distracted for a while. This time I will be home -all day - and then have the weekend.