Does anyone here get really angry at their brain? Let me explain: I’m unable to sleep at night. This is usually exacerbated by consumption of alcohol, sugar, social media, negative information and (usually) a combination thereof. I struggle through the day knowing that there are a million things I need to be doing. Even now, writing these thoughts out: I keep wanting to take a break and check Twitter / Instagram / LinkedIn to see if I’ve picked up any more followers / likes / comments. It’s maddening.

This morning I woke up at 5:30, meditated for about 20 minutes, got dressed, got my kids ready for school, took them in, then came home and have been waffling for the past 2 hours. It’s like there’s a million things I need to do that are all piling up, but my brain has no access to them. My brain keeps telling me: “nah man, you’re good. Post that article on Twitter; engage with that random person.” Meanwhile, bills are piling up, deliverables are not getting delivered, and I’m getting more and more stressed out.

I really hope I can turn the tide. I keep wasting my life and eventually it’s all going to catch up to me.