WOW EM! I think you hit the nail on the head. I wasn't even thinking about it this way (particularly as some of my schizoaffective thinking is out today and I am a bit paranoid, anxious, and agitated which is making thinking more difficult in general) but yes I do feel generally uneasy and unhappy having to do the things that the T should do. I had to sign up for Zoom Pro so that we could have the full session and she hasn't even done that. You're right. It's a little thing. It shouldn't bother me. But on some level I think it does. It sort of reinforces the idea that maybe she can't help me. That I am not in it with her, or that she is not in it with me. That I have to be self-reliant, which as you linked it to, I had to be self-reliant in childhood when my parents should have been taking care of me, and I don't want to be complimented for it. Of course, being the non-confrontational person that I am, I doubt I can actually bring any of this up in therapy where you know, it would be helpful to talk about. But definitely an eye-opening response to my post and I thank you very much!