Here's a quote I saw on Twitter which I thought might help you to restore hope, BlueJackie.

Keep going, please.🙏

Also, maybe a friend or family member could give you a place to stay while you work through things with your mom? Don't give up and consider every option available to you. In my worst times I said, things can't possibly get worse therefore they must get better and I believed in it. And slowly things have indeed been getting better.🙏