hi mylife...

i started having those feelings at about 16? a long time ago anyway... i went thru several long term cycles of feeling that way.... doldrums with where i was, imagining something better.... needing something better...... wanting to know there was something better.... and day after day, cycle after cycle, the same thing...

after a really long time, i began to make some progress tho... its hard and seemingly endless work.... the gains are very small and come infrequently for some... depression rolls downhill fast... getting back uphill takes longer the farther down you've rolled, but the snowball effect works in both directions... once it begins to filter into place, the steps become relatively easier, the gains massively greater...

hang in there, never give up... always look for the light... even when it seems darkest, trust that there is a light somewhere and you can find it... sometimes its the form of a hopeful thing another says... sometimes it is a caring smile....

wishing you the best always...