They have never taken these meds. They don't know what it's like. I know though.. I'm not sure where I'd be without researching wtf has happened to our minds.

A little bit is my fault for being confident enough to allow them to trust me to take more control in my treatment than an average patient.

I'm not sure if the Wellbutrin was the cause.. I've had some psychiatrists do malpractice with me from the start (And that made me really upset) like "It's not my fault if you kys".. Just a bunch of stuff..

With the way that the world is, I'm grateful that I'm getting ANY help at all (Especially with my self medicating - Lucid or not).. and that I get disability.. that I have a family that loves me and tries to take care of/help me.

I really hate to be controlled and it bothers me so much that it has to be this way. My mom thought about being ?? Like the Britney Spears thing? Conservatorship.. She said that she didn't do that because of how I'd react. Idk.

I was the one that adopted that emergency psychiatrist.. He's good (In the way that I like?).. Idk if that's bad.. But I'll keep thinking about this.. thx..