
May 12, 2022, 04:32 AM
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Member Since: Jul 2019
Location: Downtown Vibes, California
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Originally Posted by Breaking Dawn
Some part(s) of me doesn't want to sleep. Oddly, there is this glad feeling, like when a kid doesn't want to go to sleep. But this other part of me is begging for sleep. Is it me that is causing this?
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No, I don't believe it's you. My experience is that there's this "thing" that happens when we cannot sleep. You've described it so well - like a kid who gets to stay up late. The kid's thoughts are excited - but the kid's body is compromised from lack of sleep.
Our thoughts tell us that we're in control of our sleep, that if we really wanted to we would sleep. So there's a kind-of elation feeling...Wow - I can stay up as long as I want!...but I believe that the truth is our brains really are malfunctioning, and that we desperately need to sleep.
I lie in bed with my thoughts beating up on me, telling me that if I REALLY wanted to sleep, I would. But deep inside I know that it isn't true. Truthfully, there's a malfunction that is very physical.
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