@*Beth*

I’m so sorry you’re still struggling. Sometimes we can accept our dx of bipolar and even years later struggle to accept it again. I have ideas in my head that I might be able to go off meds if I can settle my trauma as well, but in my heart I know that’s not true. The best thing that can happen is I can go back to being on just depakote and lamictal. That would be wonderful. Even without the vraylar I’m still on six others.

Vraylar might work for you but it is also expensive. I just happen to have excellent prescription coverage so after the annual deductible they’re basically free. Sometimes they are free. Also, I tend to have the worst, rarest side effects lol, to the point where doctors will tell me my side effect is not even a side effect of that medication (a quick internet search always says otherwise). But in terms of weight gain, that is a known and common vraylar side effect, so if you don’t want that stay away.

I hope you do start the lamictal at least until you can get further in your trauma work. And I hope your therapist comes back soon, and that you can get some good sleep!

Sending healing vibes your way

Ps - and I agree with Christina