I just came back from the grocery store. I almost had a panic attack in there. Its way too hot to wear a hoodie. So I was wearing a Hollister T shirt and black cargo shorts and Vans and a baseball hat. No one was paying me any attention but I was just so freaked out. My arms are covered in bruises from various blood tests but again no one seemed to notice me at all. I exchanged looks with the self checkout guy but I looked at him first. I got everything I wanted but this agoraphobia sucks and I don't remember it being this bad this time last year when I was 17 pounds heavier. Shouldn't I have more confidence? My mom says I was so anxious because I haven't been eating enough but I've been drinking too much soda. I just don't get what the difference is really between last year and this year besides the weight loss and not wearing masks. But I have a full beard so its not like I don't pass or anything like that. I truly don't get It.