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Old May 12, 2022, 05:49 PM
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Originally Posted by eskielover View Post


They knew with me it had nothing to do with being weak, lazy or unmotivated but more like burnout because 70-80 hour work weeks were my norm while practicing my flute & performing in chamber groups....but one can only go at that pace for so long without burnout happening & when not able to function at the level one is used to & throw other factors in, depression will hit & not always easily recovered from depending on other circumstances
She texted me today,

Asked me if I had time today or tomorrow to meet.

I said yes I'm available. Want me to come to your house right after?

She's still worrying about me, "Aren't you going to be tired after work?"

I wanted to show I am doing fine by saying "I've been eating well and sleeping well so I'm not tired, I stopped drinking coffee at work too".

I also asked if she had rested well but her work seems to be very busy still.

She said she might be weak today but probably will clock out on time. But I've been always weak so doesn't matter if we see today.

So I told her I can come tomorrow instead since both of us are working from home tomorrow.

This is the part that I got the mix feelings, she said babe if you're not tired I want to see you today.

I wasn't sure if she just wanted to get it over with, or really wanted to see me.

But few minutes later she realized she has a meeting at 9, so we pushed to tomorrow.

I kind of told her my feelings, I said I also really missed you very much but I guess I'll come down tomorrow. I'm not going anywhere so you just do your things.

I asked her when I should come, she said whenever you're comfortable since I'm working at home tomorrow.

Then I ended by saying Ok, I'll call you when I leave at 1

I'm having very mixed feelings about this.. I know I am overthinking but as a human being I can't stop. We live about 40 minutes away from each other so logically, she wouldn't make me drive all the way to her house to just to tell me we should break up and send me home right away? If she wanted to end things, why didn't she stop me when I said "I'll come over to your house?" Instead meet at the middle or something. I do have few things at her house, does she want me to take my stuff from her house? or she wants to say it face
to face to break up with me. Even during this conversation, she called me babe.

A lot of thoughts are going on right now but tomorrow is the D-Day, we will find out.