I gave my boss a 2 weeks notice. I'm not sure why. He seemed disappointed - Which makes me feel bad.

I just feel like they hate me - When they likely don't. I want to be alone. I have no idea what I'm doing.

People don't know me - And I want them to know my positive self - Not the negative. It makes me want to die lol

My mom and her friend wants me to work at the cannabis store - I don't feel like learning anymore. I don't want to cook. I don't know what I want - Just resistance to life - Just like before the trip.

I seemed to have atrial fibrillation last night - Not sure why. If I die in my sleep, I hope I'll be in a better place ^-; I can't trip again cuz of heart palpitations. I give up. My mind doesn't make any sense at all - And no one understands. So why not die - Especially when I'm abused by people that don't understand.