Thought I'd post an update after returning to T today!

It was an awesome session - one of those magical sessions when the connection between us is so easy to feel. He seemed genuinely happy to see me when I got there, and I managed to stay present, and not put up any walls, and tell him how I really feel about things - my fear of being too needy, my fear of him rejecting me, etc. He made it very clear that he cares about me, that he likes me, and that that's not going to suddenly change. He made it very clear that he was happy I was back, and that I'm not "too needy". He pointed out that I did SO well on my vacation, and that that shows I *can* be independent....so I don't have to be afraid of letting myself need him. I won't get lost in it. And we talked about my fear that underneath my anxiety, there might be depression....he had some other ideas about what might be underneath the anxiety....my authentic self, and who she might be....and it made me see that he sees really wonderful things in me that I don't see in myself - things that have never even occurred to me.

I really opened myself up and was super vulnerable, and he did everything right in return. I felt heard and safe and nurtured.

AND, for anyone who read my other thread about wanting to play cards in T....I told him that I really, REALLY want to sit on the floor with him and play cards....so we're going to play Uno on Friday

Thanks for listening and helping me in this thread. I'm so grateful to have this board!!