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wildflowerchild25 · May 14, 2022, 06:49 PM

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Originally Posted by *Beth*

Okay! A terrific work out vacuuming, mopping, changing out the cat boxes, now I have lots of garbage and recycling to take down to the bins.

Listening to disco, wow, sure takes me right back to 1979. I was 17. Great times (as long as I wasn't at home). I wonder how many people realize that the BeeGee's are saying "What're you doing on your back, you should be dancing"? Popular music snuck some naughty lyrics in, for sure

Did I ever tell you guys that I was

Possible trigger:

raped when I was fifteen? It was a boy older than I was. The pain was so severe...I wanted to scream out, but all I could do was get tiny breaths enough to keep from completely passing out. I've never told my husband about it. David was "the first" as far as consent, and I was 18. That's all he knows. He does know about my sickening step-father's sexual abuse, though. I looked up my step-fuc"er's name online and discovered that he's dead. Thank God he can't hurt more children. I have to fight the belief that I'm just a thing to be used, a dirty ragdoll.

Okay, off to drag all the recycling down. Hugs all around.

Where's Soupe?

Regarding your trauma:
Me. Too. Different circumstances but same consequences.

I do hope you find a Therapist to do trauma work with if yours continues to be unreliable. I would recommend trying to find a PTSD support group if you can, or trauma education group. I don’t know if there’s any around you, I’m only in one because I’m in IOP. I went to a free outside group once but there were only two other women there and they were in their teens/early twenties. I felt I didn’t “fit in”.