I also feel like I'm on a deadline. Once my probation ends, my notice period goes from 2 weeks to 3 months. The thought of having to do this another 3 months at least is depressing. I'm already dreading having to work again tomorrow. And it's going to be even harder to find something else with such a long notice period.

I think the big problem in this job is that I have to be at least somewhat creative, about things I don't care about. And I truly can't. I end up just staring at my screen, hoping some inspiration will hit me. I'm not lazy. I want to work. Every single evening I tell myself "Tomorrow I HAVE to get through these tasks." But the next day I still can't do it.

My last job was boring, but I could do it on auto pilot, while zoning out. Wasn't a great job, but at least I got things done. And I guess overall, I still get things done now. I work fast in the rare moments when I'm focused and motivated and I get through the same amount of work as other people on my team.