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*Beth* · May 16, 2022, 09:15 AM

Good Monday morning!

I wish the @ thing worked for me.

wfc, wow - I sounded really negative & bitter when I commented about not bothering to schedule a therapy appt. for your mom. I just so strongly empathize with your situation with your mother.

Jennifer, I so hope a med change will help you feel more stable. I understand your worry, but I doubt that she'll dismiss you. I think they take it as a personal and professional failure if they dismiss a patient.

Christina, thank you. Thank you sooo much for your kindness and support. I'm accepting that I need to limit my time on the feline diabetes group. I've gained the information I need, which is very helpful. Saturday night a couple of the mods got so judgmental, they were all but blaming me for Sid having diabetes. And I am frantic...she is a perfect pet, I love her so, so, so much. I don't want to become so crazy-worried about her that she feels tense. She's very sensitive. So I'm working to fit the others into her food needs while still meeting their needs. I love them, too! They are precious to me. One mod told me that I NEED to buy (at least one) automatic feeder - she gave me the link. It costs just under $300 !!!! God help me, I practically fell off my chair. But I've always fed my cats excellent quality food, even though it really does mean that I don't have the $ to buy all the food I need for myself. It's okay, though.

I finally asked as politely as I could why, if what the mods feed their diabetic cats works so well, do their cats' glucose numbers fluctuate so much? Of course, that pissed them off. Reality bites, what can I say.

Ugh, sorry for the rant. I was just so undone Sat. night. and ended up taking too much Seroquel, then felt sick.

I hope Soupe is okay, odd that she hasn't checked in in days. Soupe, if you see this, how are France plans going?

That shooting in Buffalo is heartbreaking. I used to feel that parents were responsible if their child was messed up or did destructive things. But I've learned that while there usually are environmental reasons, it's not always the case. Once in a rare while a child comes into the world with "stuff." Maybe it's genetics, maybe reincarnation. Who knows.

I've been reading over DBT techniques. I wish the "professionals" didn't communicate with people as if the people are always between ages 12 and 20. Anyway, it definitely helped to refresh some of the skills in my mind. There are some I best relate to...breathing, self-care as far as scents and nice body things. Focusing on one color that I see in my environment is a really interesting coping skill (to divert my attention from feeling out of control). Radical acceptance is something that we basically have to learn as we age, I'm finding.

Thank you, wildflowerchild, for reminding me to check out DBT

Well, I just finished breakfast, no more food until 4 p.m. so I can do the fasting blood labs today. I'll be drinking plenty of water, though, so that's fine with me.

Here's a beautiful, happy little daisy for each of you to start off your week