Things are weird with me I can talk to people that I have already told that my wife has passed I usually don't get emotional.Like today and last Friday I ran into two different people that I have not seen for awhile and I get emotional with them it is like talking about her death to them brings me back to the day she died. I get all emotional and I get teary eyed and have a hard time talking about it.

When I went to Texas the 21st of April to buy my motorcycle the first two nights in the different hotels and on those nights I would get woke up to some kind of noise and I would wake up thinking it was my wife going to the bathroom and one thing that did not help was I leave the bathroom light on in hotels. I would lay there for I don't know how long but I would get up and check the bathroom to see if she was ok. I would realize my mistake and go back to bed. Now I have done this for the last few months at home even I mean several times I went to the opposite side of the house looking for her. Well after those two nights I have not had these dreams or whatever it was. I also used to have really bad nightmares about her and those have gone away. I'm not sure what is going on but I will except this break from te waking up and the nightmares.
I have never told anyone what my nightmares were about and I probably never will. I have brought up that I did have nightmares but not what they were about and I plan on never sharing them with anyone. I also used to wake up in the middle of the night sobbing I mean I would actually wake up crying. I am glad that those have gone away and I hope they stay away.

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