I'm feeling better today but always do right before therapy, which is tomorrow. I'm sitting outside the office and she calls but I don't have the balls to tell her I'm here if she can see me. I'm not prepared for the many conversations I will have tomorrow with her.

I think I'm just going to walk in and tell her I'm not really eating, sleeping, taking my meds probably but I am smoking my anxiety is down, sh thoughts are down and sex drive is up. I feel good but behavior wise I'm falling apart. Just start there and see where it goes