I don't like surgery. I get bad post op depression. I wanted top surgery since I was 10 yeah. So that was worth it. But I got severe post op depression that seemed like it changed my personailty and it lasted from October until the end of the year. I literally did not recgonize myself afterwards and its partially what caused the rupture between me and my transference T and landed me in IOP in December 2020. The revision surgery in June 2021 also caused post op depression. I mean the end results were great but I endured hell after those 2 surgeries both physically and emotionally. The hystorectomy last October was ok though.

But this thyroid nodule has got to go. It is driving my anxiety up the wall and it is causing so much distress for me. Especially at night when I am lying down and I feel it every time I swallow. It is just driving me insane, they have to remove it either by surgery or some other way because I can't live with it. So hopefully they call tommorow and I am going to stick up for myself and demand they do something about it. And if I get post op depression or post procedure depression or whatever so be it.