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Originally Posted by SlumberKitty
UGH.
I just want to lay in bed and not talk to anyone and not have anyone talk to me. I want to completely distance myself from everyone/everything. I know isolating is not good. I reached out to my Pastor's wife. She wasn't too helpful but she was trying. I reached out to another friend too and I am waiting to hear back. I have therapy tonight so I guess we will talk about this. I don't even want to get on the Zoom for therapy but I already paid for the appointment so I guess I should. I don't want to go to the hospital so I better manage this. Just a really bad crappy day that has gotten me down in the dumps.  |
Sorry Kit .. Big (((hugs))) to you <3
No one should have those thoughts.. I say to myself, "STOP" - But they aren't really in my control.. I haven't had them for about a week and it's a huge weight off of me..
The hospital sucks so much but just keep it in the back of your head..
I hope you feel better soon. Work can definitely potentiate terrible feelings, negative self talk etc.. The way the world is, economy self destructing.. Everyone's jobs that are going to be replaced by AI/robots etc.. There's so much going on - The world is insane..
You would be missed so much - And anything you can do for your own health/mental health is what you have to do.. Life is beautiful - But it's life.. Extremely difficult. Manifest.. It's what I'm trying to do.. Seek out contentedness - Under the big magnificent puzzle that is reality - And the infinite IQ of GOD (We are nothing in comparison to this.. Just insignificant).. Powerful stuff, that we forget about while we're in dark places.. I like looking at the stars almost every night that the sky is clear.. It reminds me of this before I go to sleep...
Put on a good song/or anything for self care - If it hurts too much, we'll be here.. It was painful for me ~2 weeks ago.. But THY SHALL PASSES.. All of time. Everything is temporary.. We all have our own ideas of heaven - And when you're feeling good, you know it.. and you think, "Wow.."