My male dog seems to be OK, but I noticed some symptoms that after googling (yeah, I know) make me think he's probably dying. I got him scheduled to see the vet tomorrow to confirm (or hopefully find something else).

I've put several dogs to sleep over the last 20 years, but he's been with me longest and is easily the best dog I've had. After the back and forth with the first dog, I decided that I won't try to make them live longer with crazy medical procedures. I only want them to have a happy and comfortable final days.

I'm going to pull the mattress off the bed and move it to the living room so he doesn't have to move or jump to get on the bed. I'm going to get him some good food and hopefully spend less time on the computer and more with him.

I'm not afraid to say goodbye to him, I only wish that I'd been a better parent. He's given me so much love and kept me going when things were pretty bleak. I hope I gave him as much as he's given me.

Anyway, not to bring anyone down, but my 2 dogs are the only reason I've been able to get through the last 10 years and I love both of them like crazy.

Thanks for reading.