I've been away for a couple months or so, trying to clear my head. As always, life has been a roller coaster. The last couple of days have been pretty good, because I'm actually taking action to improve things.

Then I googled some symptoms that my dog is having and got the impression he's probably not going to be around much longer. Going to see the vet in the morning to get things checked on.

My anxiety is up because of all of that. I've always had bad health anxiety about myself, mostly because I don't want to get sick and be dependent on doctors and nurses in my final days. Like my parents.

I don't want my dog to suffer and I'm trying to keep myself from falling apart about him. I gave him a hot dog for lunch and he seemed to enjoy it more than his normal food. I'm going to go out for a bit to get him some better food and treats.



Thanks for reading.