Back to weed smoked once a day and a 1.5 shot of rum after work. I'm using small amounts of phenibut to lift mood to a normal level.

I failed to stay on the gabapentin and Zoloft to lift mood and replace phenibut.

I only have mild substance abuse disorder now (Not severe x10 SAD). I give credit to the psychedelics for that. And yes, psychedelics can be psychologically addictive - So best to keep trying to be sober through DIY spirituality.