Oooh my god my mom texted me telling me she filled out an intake form for a therapist!!!! Unbelievable! Who knows if she’ll stick with it and actually go but that she even took the first step is amazing. I am so happy for her, and so excited to tell my brother tomorrow at dinner! Which he confirmed so barring any unforeseen circumstances (of which there tend to be) we will see them to plan. If not I’ll FaceTime with them, we need to get this moving before she changes her mind.

As for me, I’m getting super frustrated with my inability to remember anything, distractibility, inability to concentrate, and other cognitive impairments and executive function problems. I can’t focus on anything, my mind wanders all the time, I can’t even focus on conversations with RS and my son. I’m going to bring a notebook with me to the dinner tomorrow because I WILL NOT remember it. I don’t know what’s going on and it scares me. I’m wondering if one of my medications has messed up my brain function. I asked RS if he’d ever been to a specific park and he said yes, WE went there together. No recollection. All I can say is I’m VERY glad I didn’t give in to pressure and have ECT again, it would have made thins a thousand times worse.