I slept fitfully last night. I was up from about 12-4 dealing with the swallowing thing. I got it under control with tylenol and a valium and my AM geodon and then I ate something since I skipped dinner. Then I was able to get back to sleep for a couple more hours. I asked my mom if I was more likely to die right now then she was. And she said there was a chance. I mean you can't just go your whole life saying you want your mom to outlive you and then be upset when theres a possibilty it could happen. Anyways, I got my weekly shot this morning so I'm starting to calm down mental health wise about everything and I'm starting to think more clearly. The day before my injection I can get very anxious and moody regardless of what is going on.