Not great. I'm having paranoia, agitation, stress intolerance, difficulty managing emotions, anxiety, depression, and


Since I kind of freaked out a bit at work yesterday, my boss in NY is going to call me today so I am pretty nervous about that. I am a little off the rails but she is usually pretty understanding of me since I have been very open about my mental health diagnoses. I don't think I am getting fired or anything but it might be an awkward conversation. EEK. I guess I'm having impulse control issues too.

I went to my ladies group at Church last night. I had planned to go to the ER afterward but I felt better after Church so I didn't go. I figured I could always go today or tomorrow or this weekend if I need to.

I guess I need to let my T know what is going on. I had told her on Tuesday at our appointment but she didn't really zone in on it, and we mostly talked about my friend having passed. But since it is disrupting my work now that's not good.

I took some anxiety medication before coming to work and I am hoping to get distracted. But I am waiting on others to give me some tasks to do so I am just poking around on the internet.

I kind of think I should have considered the residential treatment program two month ago more than I did but I don't know. I had been doing okay I guess until this week when everything has been going to pieces. Just trying to stay in my right mind and not get too unsettled.

Thanks for asking SP.