I contacted my therapist via text and let her know what was going on with me. She hasn't gotten back to me (yet) but she might be busy with appointments, etc. I told her I would update her if I go to the ER for mental health reasons.

Still waiting on my boss to call me. I am trying to decide if I should send her an apology teams message since I did sort of word vomit all over her twice yesterday in my psychosis. Or just let it go. I don't want to make things worse but yesterday was definitely not my best performance at work, and not typical of how I behave at work. I hope she knows that. But still. Not good. I'm not worried about being fired or anything. I'm the one who does payroll and I have access to the payroll reports and there has been no checks written for me out of schedule. (Yup I am a bit paranoid.) But I am worried about what she is going to say.

Had to deal with said coworker today in order to get some bills paid. I was extra polite and did not find any difficulties with working with her today. Usually when it comes to paying bills we don't clash too much. I asked her a question on email early this morning about the P and L report but she hasn't gotten back to me. She might be avoiding me, or I might be paranoid. Or both!

I think I have worn out my friends with my constant neediness this week. So I am trying not to reach out and just suck it up. The bigger than usual but still within prescribed limits of anxiety medication I took this morning seems to be helping me do that. I don't know what will happen when it wears off though.