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Old May 19, 2022, 05:21 PM
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Originally Posted by WindsThatBlow View Post
Not doing so hot today. My life has very little meaning and I'm realizing more and more that it's not working towards anything better. I don't want to feel any more pain and there is no path forward without it. I really was starting to feel something special for this person in my life who begged to be there -- who left me because my situation makes a relationship "unsustainable". It's not that I think that's wrong -- it's just makes me wonder what am I trying to do ? I don't have a job, I cant get out from under my situation with my mother, I think a relationship is well out of the question -- no one wants someone like me in this situation. I just don't know what to do about my life.

I've been yelled at, called a piece of crap for my situation, I've been poked and prodded to try to change it, I've been gently coddled and told it will change in time... but nothing changes. I can't make the change. I hate what my life is, I have who I am, I hate everything. It's just a really rough place to be.

I’m so sorry that right now everything is bleak and discouraging. I wish I had grand earth shattering advice but I don’t. Bipolar cycles it always does. That the only consistent thing it ever does. I think it will spit you out the other side and things will look better. Meanwhile … just float. Don’t drive yourself mad by trying to swim up stream. Use this time to just be, just float.

If you need a ear or shoulder I’m here for you.

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