Ugh, Dr. T told me at the beginning of sessions that my texts confirming in-person had become annoying. After having said a month or two ago that they were completely fine. And confirming that about a week ago when I checked in. I've only been doing them because early on in resuming in person, he texted me a Zoom link while I was in his waiting room. And how sometimes when he's putting sessions in his calendar, it autopopulates as Zoom (he stills sees the majority of his clients virtually, by their choice).

So that triggered all sorts of stuff in me, especially considering that I've had conflicts regarding email/outside communication with both ex-T and ex-MC. And these were literally texts that just said, for example, "Confirming in person at 12 today," which I later shortened to "CIP@12." And his just clicking the thumbs up on the text (imessage) or replying "y" or whatever was all I wanted. Which he said took about 30 seconds and was not an issue at all. Until...apparently it was?

When he said they had become annoying, I immediately started crying, and he said, "It's OK. It's not a big deal." But it felt like it--again, because he had very recently, like a week ago, said they were fine! We discussed other stuff for the rest of the session, then came back to the texts right at the end. I said how to me, being annoying felt like the first step toward abandonment. He said it was like the first step out of his office being a step toward New York City (we're like a 4-hour drive/train ride from there). As in, very minor. But it's still painful. I emailed him to explain further, which I acknowledged was probably just adding to annoyance (and I continued the steps toward NYC metaphor, which hopefully he appreciates, as he's from there).

**Please no replies expressing judgment on emailing him or being bothered by this. Again, this is partly due to past stuff with T's and other people, and he is very aware of that. I know it's OK to annoy someone; I don't want a lecture on that right now....**