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Old May 21, 2022, 02:29 AM
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I’m feeling waves of burning anger. I’m so frustrated and disgusted by my husbands comments towards me and his angry aggressive attitude, his arrogance, his whining, his selfishness, dominance, immaturity, addiction. off and on over the many years it’s been this way, but I always feeling guilty and confused, scared about my telling, feeling, thinking about it.

There’s been several times where I cried or was angry about how he was abusive to me. But he told me wasn’t abusive, so I guess I believed him. Because he didn’t hit me. He’s admitted to being verbally abusive before, and maybe tried to work on it, but those days are long gone. He just revels in his nastiness like he’s proud of himself. I’m worried.

I’m so furious about how he’s spoken to me today. His so manipulative and selfish it’s mind blowing. I’m on the edge. I’m extremely exhausted of this dynamic. It makes no sense to go on this way. I have the hardest time admitting I am miserable. I’ve been worrying he’ll look at my iPad and read my stuff.

I just keep wishing things will get better together, but it’s not. Just getting worse.

I’ve thought it’s impossible to be apart, but I’m starting to think it’s impossible to be together.
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