This has been so miserable. I've never known severe physical suffering like this. It makes life not worth living to me.

Also, I'm alone. My bf died 2 years ago. We moved so far from family. I thought I'ld have some good years to think about moving back to where I'm from. For 8 years I cared for my very sick bf. I was strong. Now, less than 2 years later, I'm in a hospital bed a mess. It's too much. Without health, there is nothing, esp when your love is gone.