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Originally Posted by LonesomeTonight
Dr. T sent a long reply to my email. Though it felt like he used a lot of words to not say that much? Still processing it. There was clearly some misunderstanding going on for both of us. And he said it's not a big deal at all. He did say he could have done a better job in being "softer" in telling me what was bothering him, so that's something, I guess? I mean, for him to admit that. As opposed to just suggesting it's all an overreaction on my part.
And yes, I'll admit it's an overreaction, but it's to a trigger, and that's how those sorts of things work...
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Hi everybody. I decided today that I'm ready to come around here again. I miss y'all! I never stay away long.
LT, I just read this and the first thing that came into my head was that I
really respect both your willingness and your ability to do this relationship-related work with Dr T.
Because I couldn't do it anymore. For such a long time, the therapy relationship with L
was my work, and when I had the realization back in November that I had begun insisting on only seeing her monthly it was because I was just trying to hold onto my fantasy version of her - but that I wasn't really doing any work anymore and didn't want to be (I pretended pretty well though ha) -
that was when I knew it was time to go. Well there was other stuff too but that was the crux of it I now think.
Incidentally, it's funny to me now, that she was right even though I didn't believe it - that in the past every time I'd asked her "how will I know when it's time to stop?" and her answer was always "You'll just know." Yep, she was right, I knew. It's been 5 months now (as of yesterday) since my last session, and I no longer have any desire to go back, even briefly. It helped a lot that I finally processed my feelings about leaving through writing poems during the month of April.
Oops I didn't mean to type that much.
