I can't keep up.

I am utterly overwhelmed. I have never been so well received by so many ever before in my life. I scarcely know where to begin by way of acknowledging each of you who have touched me so deeply. My god, my world went from nuclear family and gf to this exponential expansion that now includes all of you, seemingly overnight.

My mailbox is stuffed with some of the warmest expressions I have ever received. Chat has become my safe play pen where I can let the clown out after posting my guts out. Our interactions in the threads are like life itself to me.

Maybe getting "nudged" into the creative corner has something to do with my current inner disarray; so hard for me to strut my own stuff as it were. And then to receive so many many kind and penetrating observations, responses and all, just has me undone. I'm in freakin tears about it.

Don't dare apologize. It's not about that. It's about the sweetest feeling i've ever imagined, much less experienced.

My fear is that I can not sustain this pace. More precisely, I'm afraid of missing something important to anyone I've come to know and love, and the hurt and confusion that can rise from that. And too, so many of you I haven't even met yet.

The dynamics of this interaction blind sided me completely. I had no idea of the power of our collective company when I started here. I am determined to find my stride and stay. What a home, and what a family.

So before I go total wind bag here, I want to say thank you all.

I always answer pm's. Please let me know if I lose track of you. I can't possibly respond to every post that I want to. It's about the number of hours in a day, not your posts. lol

PS, I will be trying to focus my posting in the bipolar forum. C'mon by.