I feel really sick. I am so nauseated and hot along with the throat stuff. I have a blood test tommorow because I see my trans doctor next Monday. I wonder if my hematricrit is up again. I am honestly wondering if its worth being on my injections anymore. I feel like they are killing me slowly with one medical condition after another. They certainly have not helped my anxiety either. And yeah I still am trans but I just wish I could transistion without the hormones. I've already had the surgery. Its just the meds are really affecting my physical and mental health and I'm just at a loss right now. Basically what set me off tonight is I ate one of my unsafe foods and its driving my stomach crazy but that hasn't happened in awhile. These past few days I was eating all kinds of stuff without an issue. Which is making me think its the hematrcrit. It shot up pretty fast before. I mean people think I'm being silly because I eat Lunchables but its because they don't make me feel like puking the way this homemade pot roast is.