Re: hellishlygood,
I empathise fully with what you're saying but please may I ask one question: "...I just can't stop crying and I feel so small because of it..., you say. Why feel so small? I went through precisely the same crying thing and - like you - felt "small", "embarrassed" - call it what you will. This went on for months. It's only now I realise what a good thing it was that I cried so much. I, too, never used to cry - until then. I fully respect the fact that you may be a very private person. Please do not feel belittled by the fact that you cry. (Does this help in any way?)