I am afraid.

I was hositalized twice in the past 3 weeks. It involved pain and suffering. I'm afraid it will happen again.

I'm alone. I was doing okay being alone, but that was when I wasn't sick.

Oh my God, I don't want to be this afraid! I am starting to not cope. People handle so much hardship. I am not strong like so many are. I just want to escape.

I have to pull myself together. I have to somehow. There's got to be a way.

Any kind word would be welcome.