I read your post and was so astonished, because I feel I may be in the same boat in a few years' time. I totally understand the anxiety about making that kind of decision.
Plus, I've also had friends who weren't quite so understanding. I think coming here to post is about the best thing you can do in that case.
Count on the members here to be understanding.
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A life all mine
Is what I choose
At the end of my days...
-The Gathering, "A Life All Mine"
The Bite-Sized Truth