Start a journal of all your struggles day by day, hour by hour. So you don't minimize. Start with a therapist, so you have more detailed of your struggles and that you are trying everything. minimize your bills to just the essentials. Are you getting by now? It's generally a 2+ year battle to get disability. Your new normal may or may not allow you to do the work. It took me years I still can't accept that I'm disabled to that degree but it's true and I'm on social security. But a year ago I accepted that I'm not going to be able to work a 9-5. I'm feeling ****** again because my son is grown. I can no longer hide behind being a stay at home parent. What I'm saying is even if you get it your internal battle will continue. Have you contacted a lawyer?