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LonesomeTonight · May 25, 2022, 07:38 PM

Dear T,
I'm glad it's not a Covid-related reason that you were out. But you seemed evasive about why. And you wiped tears a few times randomly during session (like not when I'd said something I would have considered particularly sad), so I hope everything is OK with you and your loved ones.

Possible trigger:

A friend suggested maybe it was about the Texas school shooting, and that hadn't even occurred to me that you'd have been that affected by that, at least affected enough to not be able to meet in person. I admit that although I read about it briefly, I have been avoiding any details because I don't think it would help me to read them and also that I need to be able to send D to school. I fear it makes me seem heartless or something that I'm distancing myself, but I'm doing what I have to do to function. And now I'm trying to think if your tears coincided with me talking about D, particularly tied to taking her to/from school while H is recovering, as that would make sense if you're thinking of the shooting.

I suppose I also wonder, if it's not that, if it's some sort of thing that could become a continuing issue, like ex-MC's wife. Not your wife necessarily having a medical issue, but a parent?

Or maybe you just had Taco Bell last night and are incredibly gassy and didn't want to subject me to relentless farts in the office (Una, I figured you'd appreciate that one if you're reading!). Or just a bit under the weather and wanted to be at home. Maybe I mistook your feeling a bit off for sadness.

You said you intend to be in the office Friday, so hope to see you then. I felt weirdly sad earlier thinking that if I'd put on my leopard-print shoes to see you like I did when I took out the recycling, you'd have commented on how I had leopard print both there and in my shirt (though a completely different color in the shirt!) But it just sort of hit me, like, "Yeah, I missed in-person today." It was a pretty good session, considering, but not the same.

Love,
LT