The dr thinks I have arthritis in my wrist just chalk it up to being old at 35 I guess! I’m not sure I agree tbh but maybe? He told me to try heat and/or ice, voltaren gel, and plain old Advil. Well I guess it couldn’t hurt. I also have to get an X-ray just to rule out a fracture but that’s nearly impossible, I didn’t fall or anything. I mean unless I hit it in the middle of the night woozy from sedating meds. Doubtful.

I had a major panic attack in group today. I got stuck in a loop thinking about what if RS HAD yelled at me, the fact that he would even feel like it means he’s unsafe, etc etc etc. basically flashed back to when my ex husband was blowing up at me every other day. So it quickly escalated into paranoia. All my grounding skills flew right out of my head! But I remembered one and latched on to that, then I remembered to give senses, and I wrote out safety statements just over and over again. Took about a half hour but I successfully brought myself back to reality. Very big accomplishment!