it finally happened my best friend is gone he didnt even say good bye and yet i am not sad i thought i would find it hard to cope with i cried when i first found out but now i dont care i guess it is easier to deal with now that he is not here cuz im not going to be trying so hard to spend time with him

is this selfish or what i dont know it has just left me feeling better not worse i thought i would fall apart when he left but i feel like i have been reinforced i dont really understand what is going on