I saw my doctor today. He said my blood test results are really bad. And staying on my testosterone is not a really good idea. He is saying I am just at such a high risk for a heart attack and a stroke right now that it is downright dangerous for me to continue to stay on it. But he also knows that being without the testosterone will effect my mental health and can cause depression and an increased risk for suicide. So he is continuing it for ethical reasons. I had to repeat back to him that I was aware of the risks of staying on it. He said if it was his choice he'd stop it. But I just remember when I did stop it before a couple months ago for a few weeks and how depressed and lost I felt without it. I felt like a part of me was missing. I didn't feel like who I truly was and it was really unsettling. He sent a message over to my blood doctor urging her to see me sooner then July and have me do a 3rd phelbotomy procedure. He said the swalloing issue is in my head. I can't feel the nodules. They are in the back of my head. He showed me the nodules on his computer and he said he couldn't tell if there was one really long one or if it was two small ones. He said if it was one it would be concerning. If it was 2 it was probably not a big deal but the biopsy will tell us. He told me about what the biopsy would be like. And yeah the pain involved. He said it would be like a flu shot but they do numb the area. He said he'd send a message over to the ENT doctor saying we talked beforehand about everything. He wants to see me in 2 months instead of 3 since things are concerning with the blood work and theres just the uncertainty with the thyroid. He also wants me to do a sleep study to check for sleep apnea since that can increase the blood level. I asked if any life style change can fix it. Like eating healthy or excercising. Since I had just inhaled a Taco Bell Mexican pizza in the car on my way to the apppointment and felt kinda guilty. He said no, lifestyle changes wouldn't decrease it.

So it was kind of a not really good news appointment but hes a really good and understanding doctor at least and he's doing a lot to help me.