I am sorry you're struggling so much AG. I agree with ozzie, and I would go for the two pronged approach in therapy.... working on your low self esteem and trauma simultaneously. Having said that, I am probably not the best person to give advice as I had a very painful therapy experience and haven't found a good therapist yet. I live in the UK and T's over here are not known for their compassion or competence.... especially in the Health "Service" As I'm sure you know it's very important to be as open and honest with your therapist as possible, including your feelings about the therapist and therapy. That way, misunderstandings are less likely to occur..... if you have a good T! Good luck!

Please take care of you,
Fuzzy