Reading the last post in this thread, from October 2020, it's oddly fitting for now. Which shows I clearly have recurring issues and that they haven't been resolved. I know part of that is me, but I feel part of it is Dr. T, too. Where, lately, he might tell me something is irritating, but not really explore the *why* behind what I'm doing. Like this most recent email--we talked about it some, but it still seemed more focused on *his* reaction (and my reaction to his reaction), as opposed to the reasons behind why I did it and what's going on with those.


At least with the recent text check-ins about whether we were in-person or virtual, we did address the "why" some more, and he gave me an alternate way to know he's there in person--to check for his car in the lot (he then told me which one it was, as I didn't know, and where he parks, as it's a pretty big lot). I'm still not sure we fully explored the "why" behind it though, as I think it ties into general fears of being forgotten--not just by him, but by anyone.