My day has not been good. I have become more and more depressed during the day. At one point I did recognize the danger of becoming suicidal again, so I went for a walk and after that went to the grocery shop.

At home I ate biscuits, cheese and drank a glass of wine. I usually do not drown my sorrows in alcohol, but have to admit that the calmness did me good.

This little pause (me with me) helped me to think: I have friends, but they are not so close, but still friends. I thought about the war in Ukraine, the shooting in the USA and a lot of people around the world that have to accept their situations even if it is not the best.

I cannot have this pity party for myself, so I will not allow these sad thoughts, but do what I need to do every day. That means some planning and includes being with the not so close friends.

Life has to go on! I will start to make this evening OK for myself and go to a church tomorrow.

Send my best wishes to all!