It really bothers me that he said I’m a waste of breath. That means someone’s life doesn’t matter. I wonder if he has violent thoughts about me. He did go inpatient for those types of thoughts.

I told him this morning it’s makes me very uncomfortable that he said that to me. He was very dismissive acting like im being ridiculous. Then I’m trying to explain how that’s a bad comment. As if it’s not obvious!! I said if he is having violent thoughts I want him to get help and I don’t want to be in a dangerous situation.

I’ve suspected that he thinks making me a cup of coffee or mowing the lawn makes up for everything else. I was right. He said to convince me that I’m ridiculous “the first thing I did this morning is make you a cup of coffee.”

I said emphatically “that doesn’t make up for it! That doesn’t make up for it!”

He continued out the door to buy cheese.

He starts a new job next week (where he’ll make quite a bit more money than me), so I think he is more full of himself than usual, which displays as aggression.