I feel down and hopeless right now. I was using my best friend as a crutch to escape the reality of how unhappy I am with my life circumstances. I loved and cared for him but I was using him. I talked to him for hours a day. I’ve ended a relationship that was an important part of my life and now I’m also having to face reality which is harsh.

I don’t have confidence in myself or my abilities to make things better at this time. I feel stuck and lost and scared. I’ve been struggling for months now, I know. I can’t seem to help myself out of this hole. I guess the first step is to build my confidence so I can start laying the foundation for a better life.

My daughter will be coming in today. I am so looking forward to her visit. I’m so excited. We’ll have a good 3 days.

Hugs to all.