I've been really sick to my stomach since Thursday night. I haven't done anything unusual so I'm guessing its just the high blood levels and the testosterone. I'm taking zofran as prescribed. I'm eating ok. I've been eating most of my calories before noon and then eating dinner at a normal time. Last night was really bad and I was awake and asleep off and on all night with bad nausea and lightheadness and stomach pain. I took tylenol around 1 maybe with a Reeses cup because I know you need to eat with tylenol. I started watching Top Model season 2 and I was getting pretty involved in it which was good and then my TV started acting up again. I am so nervous about my biopsy I'm almost thinking of just avoiding it. But I know avoiding it will just increase my anxiety and my doctors probably won't be happy. I have a good relationship with all of them and I don't want to piss any of them off. He said it wasn't urgent, but he didn't say it didn't have to be done at all, and my mom probably wants it done as soon as possible because of how worked up I am over it. Which then gets her worked up. She said we can tell them how nervous I am about it when they set it up and see what they suggest.

I'm trying to decide if I should tell my pdoc about my high blood levels. I don't want him hearing I'm at a high risk for a heart attack and then decide to take me off my Geodon which can mess with your heart as one of its side effects. Geodon has been my miracle drug since 2007 and its kept me sane and out of the hospital and its weight netrual and I can lose and keep weight off on it. So maybe I just won't tell him. He doesn't have any connections to any of my doctors anyways. I don't know if what I'm doing is risky but I just need everything to stay the same with all my meds.