Yeah went to the doctor today for the physical stuff and well actually had a major emotional setback. I saw the "old friend" who was there when I was assaulted. I was so terrified, I went into a frenzy and I had to ask to sit in a different waiting area and I burst out in tears when the nurse asked me what was going on. I cried until after the doctor came in. I was just so upset and I was so scared. She gave me some of the dirtiest looks and they hit me hard. So I have been trying to deal with that since 4:30 pm and then also I was told by my community support worker that she is leaving to a new job, so it's adding another person to my support team and starting over again with trusting someone new.
Then since I am living in assisted living again, I have to get my meds given to me. Well the nurse was rude to me because she tried to give me 2 antibiotics instead of just the one and she told me I better take it or she will write down that I refused it. So of course I took it. This nurse really scares me, she is so rude to all of the residents. Then later this morning I decided I was going to go to the doctor because of the physical stuff so I made an appointment and I was too afraid to tell her cause I had a feeling she would be rude to me again, so I asked another staff to tell her. Well then she calls me up and chews me out for making the appointment in the first place, she said I have no business making my own apointments and I need to just let them do their job. Well that didn't help me feel any better, I wanted to move out, though I had forgot that I had committed to staying there for a year. I don't know, life for me is hectic right now and I can't keep life straight. I am shot. But my T thinks it is good for me to make my own appointments because it encourages me to be more independent. Well anyway, I am sorry for venting, but I just wanted to I guess. Thank you for caring.

Jennifer