I'm sorry you're having such a difficult time. Sadly... I'm convinced there comes a point, age-wise, where one simply becomes excess baggage on the mental-health railroad, so to speak. I'm soon to be 74. I've been kicking around the mental health system where I live for over 20 years. And all anyone has ever done with me was to open the medicine cabinet & say: "Which drug do you want?" I don't know at what age this "age-factor" kicks in since I was already there when I first became an active consumer of mental-health services at around age 50. However, I'm convinced mental-health services (at least where I live) are for young people. And us older folks are just in the way.